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19 May 2008 @ 01:20 am
Light and dark  
I think I've decided that I need to leave The World That Never Was.

It ties me so closely to a life I gave up; one I can't have anymore. This place is on the brink between the light and the dark, but it's too empty... there's nothing to diffuse either of them and the memories here are steeped too strongly in that suffocating blackness that tries to draw me back. I don't want to leave... strangely, I think my heart knows that a part of me belongs here, all manner of the phrase, but ... I'm afraid.

I can't continue to remain in the trappings of my old self and hope that perhaps all I need is time to adjust; that I can remain here and still retain my light. I need to know if this is something I really have the ability to gain control over and I can't do that here. I need a buffer. I have to leave.

[Private to Xemnas] I don't want to do this alone, but I haven't been able to tell you about it yet. I know I shouldn't let that bother me, but it doesn't feel right that I've yet to speak with you about all of this. There's ... actually quite a bit I want to talk about. When can I see you?

[Private to Fran and Luxord] I was thinking about starting in Port Royal. I know you two frequent there and I suppose out of all the worlds, it's one of the few I'm more familiar with by now. I don't think I could stand Radiant Garden, but maybe Traverse Town...
 
 
Pretending to Feel: contemplative
 
 
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Fran: look on[info]fuzzybunnyears on May 19th, 2008 05:55 am (UTC)
Private to Saix - Viewable to Luxord
I am there currently. I left the girl safe in another location and have returned home.

If you would like to pay a visit, I would not mind at all.
Saix: VII[info]0_luna_rossa_0 on May 19th, 2008 05:59 am (UTC)
Private to Fran - Viewable to Luxord
I think that might be a good idea. Once I take care of a few things here I'll come by.

Edited at 2008-05-19 04:35 pm (UTC)
I. Xemnas: We never got to say goodbye[info]xemnas_kyomu on May 19th, 2008 04:05 pm (UTC)
Private to Saix
Any time you wish to talk I am there. As I said with the battle with the shade call my name and I shall be where you are.
Saix: xem/sai (someday)[info]0_luna_rossa_0 on May 19th, 2008 04:44 pm (UTC)
Private to Xemnas
Meet me at my room?
X. Luxord: New Dawn[info]ace_anachronism on May 21st, 2008 03:36 am (UTC)
Well I see Fran has made her say and who am I to argue? You're always welcome around mate. Port Royal certainly has a lot more life to offer that's for certain.
Saix: fly-by grin[info]0_luna_rossa_0 on May 22nd, 2008 02:20 am (UTC)
I think you could throw a rock and hit some place that has more life than this world these days. I would make a comment about the impermanence of nothingness, but I wouldn't want to sound like Vexen.

Regardless of what happens, I should come visit anyway; we three haven't had a proper moment together in a while.

Edited at 2008-05-22 02:20 am (UTC)
 
 

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