I came out of the meeting with mixed thoughts and I've been avoiding putting them here until I was more clear on where I stood. Zexion's own thoughts have given me pause; I should have realized that his penchant for analysis would reveal the other side of the issue. And there is always another side.

If what he theorizes is true and we have had our hearts all along, then perhaps it is just a simple matter of being true to them and realizing their existence on our own. It is certainly the simpler answer, but there would be even fewer ways to prove such a thing than through the Superior's plan. Shall we all strike out on our own, as some have already, and hope that looking within and existing as normal creatures will make us as such? Do we pretend to feel until we either fool ourselves into thinking we actually do ... or would those feelings actually be real?

Some seem content enough without bothering themselves with such questions to begin with but I can't let go of mine so easily. There are too many things about myself that I simply cannot push aside. I have already decided my direction in all this and I will hold to it, but perhaps there is still room on this journey to entertain other paths.

In light of recent events and for my own peace of mind, I cast again after quite some time. Ignoring the three years spent in the darkness, it had been months since I last felt the need to solicit an outside opinion. Luckily, time does not weaken all things.

I divided the circle out of curiosity; just in half for my divided thoughts. Most of the cast lay outside the circle, something I wasn't surprised to see. Initiation lay firmly within the half devoted to the Superior and his request, reversed and very near to the Unknowable. I do not believe this has anything to do with myself and it bothers me but at the same time, I doubt there would be little I could do to alter this. Within Zexion's half was Constraint (reversed), the Self and Signals... the latter of which lay close to the dividing line. Perhaps for the time being, heeding Zexion's counsel might prove wise although I question what the outcome could be of following too closely.

Fertility missed the circle entirely and fell off the table. There is always one it seems...

((OOC: Saix is casting with runes, although I'm going to assume that while there's no 'Norse' history to base them off of, that doesn't mean they wouldn't exist in some form or another.))